Joshua James Anderson

Josh stopped in the store one night to see how long until i was going to be home and what all needed done for cleaning i told him and he left i went home about an half hour later to a clean house and a candle lite Mc D's dinner we had fake flowers and he put the food on plates and our soda in wine glasses had all the lights of and candles all around thats one of my most favorite moments because we didnt have money but we had love and thats all we needed to have an amazing dinner together.... we was the most thoughtful and caring boyfriend a girl could ask for i miss him more then words can explain <3

Hey one day at work my phone started to ring but all it said was Timmy Timmy Timmy, and i thought what the hell, I looked over at Josh and he was laughing his butt off, cause he put the ringtone on my phone..

Josh's dad and his Uncle Dave gave me the nickname "Gargamel" when I was in middle school. EVERY time I saw Josh, he'd say "Hey Gargie!". Tim, Teresa, Josh, Amanda and Sam were like family. They often babysat MyKell and took her to a lot of Josh's football games. Josh grew up with my brothers; those boys were always taking stuff apart, riding bikes, building things, anything outside that had to do with dirt or grease. Then they grew up and continued to take stuff apart and get full of grease from head to toe. Except the stuff they took apart was bigger - trucks, 4 wheelers, snowmobiles, lawn mowers. Josh was a great friend to my brothers, Richie and Casey. And so in-love with Chelsea. You could see it in his eyes. Josh will be missed by so many people. He touched so many lifes. Rest in Peace, Josh.

Love,

Gargie :)

 

Josh, so many crazy memories with you. You were one of the first friends i had when i moved here from the south. We've gone on and off from hanging out a lot to not so much, but no matter what when we ended up hanging out it was as if we talked and hung out every day.  I remember the summer before freshman year i was hanging out with you and we were going to go ride bikes to meet up with some other people and i looked at you and said, i haven't ridden a bike in four years, but you reassured me that id remember how and id be fine, you apparently didn't plan on the fact that i was going to almost topple over the first attempt but i figured it out after a little while.  Hauling golf carts with my mom was always a fun time! i think she trusted you on those things more than me which is weird considering you wanted to be able to go tear up the golf course on one while we were waiting for her to tell us to load them up.  and who could forget you stopping over at the house over summer if you saw either brittni or my car in the driveway. i will never forget you scaring the crap out of me while i was putting together aiden's toddler bed, thank you for helping me finish it by the way, but there's so many more memories you will be dearly missed and never forgotten!

I always remember the times of asking josh to go in his room and play his x-box and he'd always give me the same answer everytime i asked. The answer was always NO!! I soon got used to him saying no all the time so i gave up on asking. Everytime josh would leave to go somewhere (usually down to pattis to hang out with "THE BOYS") i would sneek into his room and play his x-box or go through and look at all of the stuff he had tucked away so no-one would find it. I do have to admit he did have some pretty neat things. After i was all done peeking at all of his things i would try my hardest to put everything back the way it was so he wouldn't even know i was in there. That plan always work until he got home. No matter if it was a toy car out of place or his blanket wasn't the same was as it was when he left he found out everytime I was in his room. He would always get mad at me and call me names but he then got over it. Until of course he left and I did the same things over again.

                                     love you big brother..........................love your sis amanda

Josh!! <3
Life just isnt the same without you here. i wish you had you here to talk to. Sure we didnt always get along but what siblings to. Theres so much i wish you were here for. Calli is 2 already. shes growing fast and along with that has her own little attitudes. She knows exactly who her uncle josh is. shes a smart little turkey but i bet you already know that
I know youd be proud of the choices ive made in my life especially with Dan! Hes a great guy. would do n.e thing for me,calli or n.e of the family. As teh protective big brother you are i know you would aprove. our relationship is so great is hard to believe its real. Dan and i are getting married In July 2012 and your Baby nephew Braxtin is due in April. Its all exciting. i know your going to be here to help us with the celebrations but your not here in the ways i wish you were. its hard not having you here. I miss you like crazy josh!!
                                                   love and  miss you
                                               Love you sister Amanda 

This song reminds me of you...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FnACM2fKHSI

I wish I knew what to do now, how do I help ease the pain? Should we even try to ease the pain, the pain is love. Is it right to try to divert from the pain? So many questions, so few answers.

 

I don't believe in a "God" but I believe in a higher power of one's self, the spirit of a person lives forever. Josh's spirit is telling me to keep doing what I am doing but I don't know what I am doing.

 

I'm so confused and sad, I want to absorb everyone's pain and deal with it for them but it's so damned hard.

 

Josh, I need some help with this!

Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it ok
There's always some reason to feel “not good enough?
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction, oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless, and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an Angel, fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees

In the arms of an Angel, far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
In the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

Richie asked me (his Mom ) to make a recording of this song, it reminds him of Josh. I was so touched by the lyrics, I had to post them, I am sure Richie and all of Josh's friends can feel the truth in these lyrics

Patti Danielewicz

 

 

Every day I wake up
I hope I'm dreaming
I can't believe this shit
Cant believe you ain't here
Sometimes it's just hard for a man to wake up
Its hard to just keep going
Its like I feel empty inside without you being here
I would do anything man, to bring you back
Id give all this shit, shit the whole knot
I saw your sister today
She look just like you
You was the greatest
You'll always be the greatest
I miss you big
Cant wait till that day, when I see your face again
I can't wait till that day, when I see your face again...

Yeah... this right here (tell me why)
Goes out, to everyone, that has lost someone
That they truly loved (cmon, check it out) 

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hanging on the block for dough
Notorious, they got to know that
Life ain't always what it seem to be (uh-uh)
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone, we still a team
Through your family, I'll fulfill your dream (that's right)
In the future, can't wait to see
If you open up the gates for me
Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend (uh-huh)
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real, feelings hard to conceal
Cant imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living your life, after death 


Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
Ill be missing you
Thinking of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
Ill be missing you

I miss you big 

Its kinda hard with you not around (yeah)
Know you in heaven smiling down (eheh)
Watching us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Till the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need (uh-huh) to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts big I just can't define (cant define)
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Making hits, stages they receive you on
I still can't believe you're gone (cant believe you're gone)
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living you're life, after death

somebody tell me why 


On that morning
When this life is over
I know
Ill see your face 


Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
Every night I pray, every step I take 
every day that passes
Every move I make, every single day 
is a day that I get closer
to seeing you again
Every night I pray, every step I take 
we miss you big... and we wont stop
Every move I make, every single day
cause we can't stop... that's right
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day 
we miss you big